This past week, I was a bundle of nerves. My job is good, my relationship is good... everything was…read moregood. So why the nerves? I pride myself in being a strong, independent woman however as a larger woman I've always had body issues and this week I had decided to step out of my comfort zone and get some pictures taken to show myself that I still have some sex appeal.
I live in St. Louis, so after only a 20-minute drive, I found myself sitting outside of Bellisimo Photography Studio with 3 outfits, my personal foundation, and a desire to embrace a little body confidence. You first walk into an office with beautiful pictures of women of all sizes and colors. These photos are inspirational, and I'm starting to get a little excited to pose like some of those photos. Jay is amazing! A master promoter of women, she put me at ease right away. She did my makeup, threw some curls in my hair, and then I was off to the dressing room. I will say that I brought no jewelry to this because I didn't want to detract, but I kind of wish I had brought a couple of pieces and asked Jay what she thought. Because I only had moisturizer on my face and Jay didn't know how I usually wear my makeup, I was looking forward to her view. The makeup was perfect for an evening out (or a photo shot obviously) and I got so many compliments on my hair afterward that I may start putting a few curls in it. (Those curls actually made me feel a little more (dare I say it) sexy.)
The studio itself is gorgeous. The building looks very commercial, but when you walk into this studio, you "see" part of the "glorious" Opera House this building once was. There are 3 photo nooks in the room. Two contain couches and one a huge beautiful bed with satin sheets. They move things around every so often (so I was told), so you could technically go back every once in a while to get more pictures done.
I showed her my outfits, and we were ready to go. The dressing room has a ton of robes that can be used. There was one that had a lot of ruffles that I really wanted to wear over a black gown that I brought, and I did.
The session was easy. Jay walked you through every pose and sultry look. As the session continued, I realized that I was truly enjoying myself, was less self-concious and beautiful, and felt like I was so powerfully woman. It's hard to explain, but I felt unstoppable. After it was over, I'll admit I was sad. I was feeling so amazing. I suppose I enjoyed the pampering and assurance that I was killing it. I got dressed and went out to talk to the art director, Ashley. She was excited to see my photos and to discuss all my options and put them in my own collection book.
I've since been back to order my photos. I walked in thinking...I bet we can only find one photo I approve. But while I didn't embrace all 60 photos that were taken of me. After some time, we were able to narrow it down to one of the packages they offer. They sent the prices of their packages before I went in to order (which I liked because they were very transparent (much like one of the outfits I wore. Hahaha), and while I told myself to get one specific collection, I settled on one with a few more pictures.
Now let me rant a little... we all have cameras that we carry around with us. Sometimes, we manage to take a photo that is epic. Sometimes. Very seldom. Photo taking isn't easy. Especially in this field where pictures never lie. You see it all in these photos, but only a pro can create a work of art out of you, even with so many flaws screaming to be seen through the lens. Jay is that kind of pro.
I will be posting some pictures of their studio nope...not of me... but when you see me next, you'll see me standing taller with an air of sensuality and power. Thanks Bellisimo!!