"I can love you like that..."
Famed author, W.H. Auden, penned this famous line in one of his poems...
We must love one another or die.
This is how I felt so long ago when we first went on our long walk in Harbor Island park. I had barely turned 18, and she had invited me to meet her mother, and her childhood friends.
This young woman was, with her madcap ways, the beginning of life for me, for I truly loved her.
At the end of that oh so memorable day, we walked along the Harbor Island shoreline. I could no longer resist the urge, and I pulled her closely for our very first memorable kiss in San Diego.
Where I thought my heart had always beat, I knew for certain that it only truly began to beat that day.
It happened in this very park.
I still remember the exact spot where we stood. The gentle breeze played with her long locks. The waves serenely eddied around our feet as our lips stayed locked as if for an eternity.
I knew that our love affair would result in derision and displeasure both from my family and friends, as family and friends sometimes don't understand the reasons for love.
But the slow death of a well planned life by well meaning family and friends, was nothing compared to the promise of endless love and passion with My Beloved.
The words that I stated from the bottom of my heart on that fateful day still ring true. The promises I made to her were best captured by an excerpt from this song...
"I never make a promise
I don't intend to keep
So when I say forever, forever's what I mean
I'm no Casanova but I swear this much is true
I'll be holdin' nothing back when it comes to you
You dream of love that`s everlasting
Well baby open up your eyes
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
If you give me a chance
I can love you like that"
I Can Love You Like That by All-4-One
Decades later, we return. We are older and wiser, and, as Auden said, "time only knows the price we had to pay" to keep the unquelled passion that still remains.
In all these years, I've pursued and achieved so much. I've grasped things in my hand that symbolized man's achievement.
Yet, in all those things, emptiness abounded, except in one thing.
That one thing is the sheer pleasure of simply having spent a lifetime next to her. It supplants anything and everything that I've ever achieved in my career.
Even now, I struggled to describe that young man's feeling that compelled him to forsake a well-planned life - to truly live - to truly love!
Such a love goes beyond just a wedding day. I've always been saddened to see friends who begin their married lives with so much bliss, but years later the passion and friendship fades into oblivion.
Although, at times, the separation is amicable, the hurt and pain linger beyond the visible. Our fate and our path would follow a different course. The words of my promise will ring true long after my physical presence ceases to be.
Until that time, we'll continue to cultivate the love we have for each other. We will always say we love each other before we part in the morning. We will never go to bed angry and unsettled. We must make the effort to love one another.
Otherwise, what has all this been for then? Futility in efforts have never been one of my predilections. Yes, we will grow old together.
But, as my days aren't promised, I will forever treasure THAT day in this idyllic park.
"When you looked over your shoulder
For a minute, I forget that I'm older
I wanna dance with you right now
Oh, and you look as beautiful as ever
And I swear that everyday'll get better
You make me feel this way somehow
I'm so in love with you
And I hope you know
Darling your love is more than worth its weight in gold
We've come so far my dear
Look how we've grown
And I wanna stay with you until we're grey and old
Just say you won't let go Just say you won't let go
I wanna live with you
Even when we're ghosts
'Cause you were always there for me when I needed you most
I'm gonna love you till My lungs give out
I promise till death we part like in our vows
So I wrote this song for you, now everybody knows
Finally it's just you and me till we're grey and old
Just say you won't let go
Just say you won't let go"
Say You Won't Let Go by James Arthur
I hope your memories of Harbor Island, are as vivid and as sweet. read more