Faith based.
I was very clear that religion needed to be…read moretabled.
Since I've experienced #ChildLoss after teaching children who are blind and have low vision for 40 years, I asked Adrienne if she had experienced #Trauma personally.
Laughingly, she said, "Of course, everyone has...BUT I have my #Faith to help me get through those things.
Do YOU have #Faith?"
Trigger. Boom.
Let's look at the definition of trauma:
trau-ma
l"trôm/
noun
1. a deeply distressing or
disturbing experience.
"a personal trauma like the death
of a child"
2. physical injury.
"rupture of the diaphragm
caused by blunt trauma"
synonyms: injury, damage, hurt,
wound, wounding, sore, bruise,
cut, laceration, lesion, abrasion,
contusion
NOT everyone has experienced this, Adrienne, and you minimized and trivialized me with this statement.
Well done. You won that round.
Yes, I left the session in tears.
Yes, I was suicidal- look at the forms. I didn't answer that question, did I, AND I told you why.
I was guilted into making the hour plus trip for this appt.
I was NOT in the mindset to undertake this endeavor that day and called the day b4 to reschedule.
(It took me 4 YEARS to get up the nerve to discuss starting EMDR and we never even got around to it!
Having relocated to reboot my life after Chelsea died JUST before lockdown, not knowing anyone, having a support system was a major deterrent- but I explained that to you both, Adrienne and Derrick.
It was more important that I NOT inconvenience you since you rearranged your schedule to see me. I am SO gr8 ful to you for doing your job. Kudos.)
Just FYI, I was in a good deal of pain (remember I mentioned that I need an Atlas to Coccyx spinal fusion after caregiving my now dead daughter for 18 mos with a torn rotator cuff? AND since I don't do opioids, I took a BC powder- look up the contents. #IYKYK
Also, I rcvd a steroid injection the day b4 for pain.
I don't do well with steroids at all and was really anxious, cuz they def make folks jumpy.
You never asked.
You attacked.
I hadn't eaten, I mentioned that as well, and I'm hypoglycemic, so I headed to my new fave restaurant for a healthy meal, no booze, just the sun and water for company. Did a little walk about in New Baltimore, then headed to Marine City. Chatted with a lovely mom and her little, met a couple from St. Clair down by one of the gardens on the waterfront.
PTSD is a cruel roommate, but I am a #Warrior and #Survivor.
I wish you the best.
Never, in 40 years of being a #TeacherConsultant have I EVER reduced a parent, child, admin, caregiver, teacher, superintendent, peer, ANYONE, to tears.
Letting someone leave a session that was supposed to be informational, NOT an interrogation in the state that I was, is cruel.