From Emanuel merino to Isabel Nunez
Hi Isadel, When you read this I want you to pretend as if I was in front of you telling you this in person and Please do not take this Personal or take it the wrong way because it sn't my intention to come across like an asshole. I've been tryng to tell you whgts on my mind, in person, God knows. I haven't had the chance, its been difficult, Im not going to say that yoi haven't given me the chance because in reality you've never said "No" but things have came up. The day I wanted to take yu to the beach, we didn't end up going because you felt bad and thats okay. Then when the kidsleft with ther dad and it was Just you home, I could've gune anyway but decided to not go because the last ching I want is to upsct you. I know we both are going through a lot right nov. You have so many things to marry about, Alex, Richie, Pavia, Miguel, and now ba by g
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tai them, working so van can pany vint and foed and gas and your car parment along with insurance, and when I was there I was on y adding weight, when I under stood that I left hoping it wond helP you. Do you rememoer on your thursday when I didn't have a chance to Speak with paula and we went off on leach other!
You told me" you make it seem like you dont do no wrong when I feel like I've tried my best to take accomtability and acknowledge the Mistakes i've made. I think we both know I am not perfect and im sorry that i've compared myself to the people ya been an with in the Past, I did it Selfishly, I know that I havent been as terrible as they have bout that doesnt mean my lack of support didn't hurt you, because ilearly it dio. I fucked up on valentines day. I thought taking US to Disney land, Yuv would take that as my gift. Even though I was financially struggling I did it anyway out of love, I get that on valentines day I Should have given you something minor 1, ke a flower, like how you said so thats where I fucked up, I fucked up on leaving you out when my friendS invite me to gatherings, making you feel left out. I fucked up not communienting well, I didn't inform you clearly that I wanted to won't until the first trimester was over to tell my parents that we're haning a baby, I've fuoked up staying consistent helping arand the bri when I was moved in, I fucked up financially, even though 60d knows I tried so hard with the little that I had. I've fuoked up on so many things and I know I can't go-back and change
them, but I can earn from my mistakes, thats What It means to become a better Person, In the beginning of this relationship i told xou that ô am new to this, out I didn t say that
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you'd be understanding, and to an extent you venily have been, with all that bung said, the way you've been treating me, I know a part of it is the stress of the overwhelming respensiollities you carry. Sume times you're not in tine moco, some times youre. Exhausted, sometimes you're feeding or helping the kid Ds, I get it, But I Cunt help but feel that another of it is loccause of you Past, the thúngs yun k been through, since you were child up to the relationShips youve been in, I understand that you've been through so much, its why I am so Patient. But we Both know that a Scar is made, it never fades, its always there. But that doesn't mean we cant help treat it Figuratively spenking). I want you to think about this far 9 second, only God and you know why youre breuting me the way you are out if any other Person was in my shoes do rou thine they wovid stick around? I could be very wreny but I thinke not many Back
I Knun you've tol me that yu can't give me what I want now ce ward Nor), I Know you've asked me how is it fair to me that I um being trented this way, I knon tor've askeo me why shand I have ta go thơngh all this. You ve asked me allthese avestians, do you really know why I've StucK around?
I'bell you why, because I love you Isabel.
Someone who lores Someone elsc Sticks aroond, they dont leave, especially in hard and turgh times. If I didn't love you I would have left and never looked back. If its Possible to ever go back bow it was in the beginning of the relatión ship, I knun that It won't Change from one day to the Next but!!
Keep trying my best, (P.s. I really wanted tu put the gift on you, but there wiv.be other opportunities in the future, This gift is long over dat and I know it won't fix my mistakes but mayot its enough to Show yuv that Im serios about us. Sorry for tue berrible hand writing
Love, Emmanvel Mevino read more